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Tuesday, November 2, 2004


What's up everyone? My name's Renee. I haven't had the time nor have I known how to post in these communities until recently. So I'm just going to put a little something I wrote a long time ago. Sucky guys make you write sappy and depressing shyt.

March 16th 2004 How am I going to sleep tonight? He has no problems finding someone else to cuddle with at night. He's already proven that to me. How many cracks can you apply to one's heart, before It finally gives and breaks? How many accusations can a person take from their true love, before they become mental? And how many times can you be stommped into the ground before you become flat? How many tears, exactly, do you have to cry to make a river? I'm sure I'm accountable. I love this man, but he hurts me. When I struggle to come up with the courage to call him back & apologize, yet again..and finally find that courage..He slices my heart with rejection. Soon the new dies, and the old sets in. Month by month love slowly eats away the layers of your personality, the layers of your social life. Slowly you're getting rid of everyone besides that one person. Then when it is finally total isolation. You are taken for granted and have no one to comfort you besides the pain. xx Love is Suicide xx


Current mood: distressed

Wednesday, August 4, 2004

11:48PM - Old poems

In your own world
You live here in your own world
Its perfect here
No fears
No worries
No problems
You cant even come to see the fact
That your perfect world
Isnt real!!
So stop living in it
And face the real world.....

Mind Weakens
Legs tremble
Heart races
My whole body shakes
Blood drips
Tears explode
Heart breaks
Eyes widen
Heat stops
Body turns to cold stone...

You stare into my eyes
I see right through you
I know u are lieing
So tell the truth
Or ill kill you!
DOnt mess with me
You know ill hurt you
In the way i cant explain
So stop staring into my dead...
Blank blue eyes
Cause i can see right through u!

Knocked out
Forced into a boat
Cut up
Dragged to the outside of the boat
Tied to a cement block with my bloddy body..
Eyes widen open
Trying to scream and get out
Left dead on the calm Pacific
Never herd from or seen
Ever again..

Left Nameless..
Who are you?
Why have u came into my life?
You make me cry
You are making me die inside
Fuck you!!
U reuend my life
Rot in hell

Perception of Murder
Eyes glazed
Dead stare
Don't move
Its comnig for me
No one can hear me
No one is coming to help
I guess no one cares
Then let it kill me
Free shot
Blood everywere
Curled in the alley
Eyes glazed
Dead stare

What is wrong with me?!?!
I feel cold and dark inside
Everyone around me happy....
In my mind i cant concentrate!!
Everyone scilent
But yet...
Happy expressions on there face....
My head filled with screams
My arms covered in blood
Eyes glazed
I feel cold and dark inside..

Road Kill
Rotten corpes
On the freeway
Dismembered body parts
Festering blood drippige
Decayed smell of corpes
On the freeway
Vultures picking at you body
Everyone jsut staring...
At the
Rotten corpes
On the freeway

WAt do u think??

Current mood: aggravated

Sunday, July 25, 2004


Tuesday, July 20, 2004

12:09AM - poems and such

AS you look into my blue eyes
You know im lost
You know how much uve hurt me
Im never coming back to you
AS i walk away
I see your soul sink into a black hole of filth
I turn around to laugh at your misfourtone
For now you know how i have felt!

Words of advice:
Have you ever had the feeling were your soul is lost and it can never be found? well while you are searching your life jsut piles more and more shit waiting for you at your gravestone.Then you feel as if you are ugly inside and out and nothing can be fixed no matter wat the hell people say.
I dont understand how poepl obsess over the smallest thinngs when there are bigger things to worry about than you bloddy broken nail! and your friend has a situation and tells u its a life or death kind of a thing. But you are too stuck up so far up your ass to even have a reality around you asnd to even have the cutosy to help others.
Dont ever belibe the saying "real friends are forever!!" because the truth is tat later in life your friendship ends and you start to fight with them for months or even years because of that you get fusterated and you stay scilent to the person jsut because you dont want to resolve the problem and call it a fucking day!
So in conclusion no matter how you put iy something is bound to fuck up you life one wsay or another so be prepared so ytou dont get so fucked up in the end. but anyway yuou are bound to get fucked up forever one way or another even if its a small problem it will still fuck you up a little bit no matter wat the hell it is!!

All spoken and wriiten by yours truley!!

Current mood: calm

Thursday, July 15, 2004

12:33PM - hmm

ok so im bored and i have nuthing to do in this hell hole i would post this thing that i fund in another community im in but it doesnt fit with the whole metal "scene" so i just leave that one out and i dont think i wanna um post here that much until ppl join bc then it'll make me think im crazy and well im not i dont think well thats it i guess lates<~~~!!!

Current mood: curious

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

6:01PM - new day new comm.

well i was lookin out there and alot of the communities suck so i just thought i would make my own and well poof here it is so uhh yea well lates<~~~!!!

Current mood: bored